Sutured Dreams

  "Nothing really happens to him when he gets drunk." A common reaction from my friends the past 3 years. And a very different reaction to what people used to say about me 10 years ago. Obviously there will be a lot of differences between getting drunk as a teenager and as someone who is almost 30 but this is a part of a recurring theme about myself in recent years - I don't enjoy things we way I used to. Origins It all kind of started 7 years ago. Intern year. Right in the middle of it, I found myself with 0 bank balance and having to take care of a bedridden father who needed constant support. That was when I started sacrificing parts of myself. No more eating out. Not much hanging out with friends. No going out to movies. The TV subscription was a luxury not meant for every month. Even going to and fro from peripheral postings was too expensive at certain points and I had to take extension later on to compensate. Now this didn't feel that draining in the firs